It is very difficult sometimes to explain the core of one’s pain. And sometimes the pain has many layers. Sometimes there seems to be so much overwhelming us. One curve ball after another. And this often happens when we are at our weakest. We can feel that there is no way out. No way of coping any more, and all that we can do is scream out.

I reached that point a couple of days ago. I had had bad news about my health, and I knew then that from here on in, things are going to deteriorate. I lost all my family at the same time, and I have never felt so alone in my life. Much of my time is spent on my bed, and in pain. I worried about my future. What is going to happen to me?

The fear was overwhelming. I did not wish to speak of it, and yet I did want to speak of it all at the same time.

Sometimes so much is going on in our lives that we don’t know what is going to happen to us. In my case I simply got cancer – one of the more  curable ones. But the treatment can mess you up for the rest of your life if you are unlucky. I was unlucky, and now, though the cancer itself may not kill me, the things that the drugs caused,will. We just don’t  know when.

I have gone through a very dark period, trying not to let it show. But it did anyway.

I have no idea when or where all this will end, but I certainly intend to keep posting poetry until it does.

Thankyou for continuing to read me.


14 thoughts on “DARK DAYS

  1. I am here reading your words, and being so blessed by your poetry. I pray that you will know how loved you are even when you are at the lowest and loneliest places. May you feel Jesus bringing you His overwhelming love right in the middle of the overwhelming pain.

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  2. I love you Lorraine….I pray you know that you are a blessing to many of us. Each post, the poems, your flea poems always made me laugh. I haven’t been seeing any of your posts in my notifications in a while. I was glad to see one in my reader! I’m sorry for that! Love and hugs! ❤️ Renee

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  3. blindzanygirl

    Thanks Renee. Nice to see you. Not sure what happened with yoyr Reader but sometimes that gas happened with me – people whom I follow I suddenly stop getting Notufications. It’s weird. I’ve posted quite a few flea poems lately. I love you too Renee. ❤️

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  4. blindzanygirl

    Thankyou Roberta. This past week has been terrible. I try not to show it but sometimes it comes out in my poetry. My hysband kind of copes. We need to be separate really though. Thankyou so much for asking Roberta.

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