RACE AGAINST TIME

I want to write of what it is like to become blind.

I knew, in 2016 that I was going blind. My sight has only gone gradually. However, in the last two weeks it has accelerated quite suddenly. It is hard to believe that just two weeks ago I could see the moon, but now no longer can I see it. I can no longer see things on my iPad that I could see two weeks ago. This has all been a huge shock to me. It is strange, but when you are going blind, you cannot imagine what it will be like when your sight finally goes. Now, all that I can see is a kind of blackness. I used to be able to go into the living room, and make things out in a limited kind of a way, but now it is just blackness in there. I can just see the light coming in through the window, but nothing else.

I find myself alarmed at how things are going. It is a very frightening experience. I wonder, all the time, how I am going to manage. Even finding my way around the house is now so difficult. If I could walk it would not seem so bad, but I am attempting to guide a powered wheelchair through doors that all open onto each other. Our house is just not adapted for wheelchairs and so the experience of going blind is doubly difficult.

I am still trying to write my book, and I now have six chapters done, but it is a race against time, for it will not be too long before I cannot type at all on my iPad. I am rushing to get. It done, and I think I will win, but the grief that is overtaking me is, at times, overwhelming.

M ore and more, also, I am finding it difficult to post on my blog.

It feels a very lonely road, and I wish that things could be solved, but, no matter how hard we try, we just seem stuck with it.

My first priority though, is getting the book finished. I will feel that I have achieved something if I at least achieve that.

Such is life. We can never know quite what is going to happen to us in life, and maybe t is as w

27 thoughts on “RACE AGAINST TIME

  1. I am alarmed to hear this turn of events! I hope and pray you can get your book done… When my grandfather went blind he got a program for his computer that read everything out loud to him and he could talk into it and it would transfer to written words…

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  2. blindzanygirl

    Thanks Val. Yes I have that too. I am learning to use it but it is a whole new way of writing that Ihave to get used to. I will win through though. I HAVE to!

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  3. I am sorry to hear of your incredibly difficult situation. You are doing amazingly well to keep going with your book. Is there a way you could write by dictation if you need to? I hope you can stay positive and strong through all these trials. Sending you love ❤️🙏

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  4. blindzanygirl

    Th asks so much Ingrid. Yes if I have to, I can use Dictation. It. Jus t doesn’t wo RN t oo well as it picks up things wrongly very often. Also I am not very good at doing things in my head, and not being able to see what I have just written, but I will TRY to. No way am I giving up. Writing is my life. Always has been and I WILL find a way through. You know how. It is Ingrid, good days and b ad days. We just keep going though don’t we! I shall finish rye b ooh!

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  5. You continue to inspire me with the way you face your challenges, Lorraine. And whenever I get frustrated with cataracts impeding my peripheral vision and making me type too many mistakes, I think of you, and realise how lucky I am.
    Best wishes, Pete. x

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  6. blindzanygirl

    Oh Pete. I did not know that you are struggling too. I am so sorry. But so glad that I am inspiring you. That means so mucch. But I wish that I could help your cataracts. Best Wishes and much love xx

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  7. I’m not struggling at all, compared to you. I just have cataracts that can eventually be removed. So when I feel like moaning about them, I think of you. x

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  8. blindzanygirl

    Thankyou so much Jenna. I am really feeling it tonight as I can hardly see to do anything. I HAVE to find a way and I HAVE to be strong. Thankyou for your caring ❤️❤️❤️

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  9. blindzanygirl

    Thanks. It will get done! I just need to find a way of typing when blind lol. Who knows what words I might end up with when let loose on a keyboard? Lol. I will do it! ❤️❤️❤️❤️

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