I want to write of what it is like to become blind.
I knew, in 2016 that I was going blind. My sight has only gone gradually. However, in the last two weeks it has accelerated quite suddenly. It is hard to believe that just two weeks ago I could see the moon, but now no longer can I see it. I can no longer see things on my iPad that I could see two weeks ago. This has all been a huge shock to me. It is strange, but when you are going blind, you cannot imagine what it will be like when your sight finally goes. Now, all that I can see is a kind of blackness. I used to be able to go into the living room, and make things out in a limited kind of a way, but now it is just blackness in there. I can just see the light coming in through the window, but nothing else.
I find myself alarmed at how things are going. It is a very frightening experience. I wonder, all the time, how I am going to manage. Even finding my way around the house is now so difficult. If I could walk it would not seem so bad, but I am attempting to guide a powered wheelchair through doors that all open onto each other. Our house is just not adapted for wheelchairs and so the experience of going blind is doubly difficult.
I am still trying to write my book, and I now have six chapters done, but it is a race against time, for it will not be too long before I cannot type at all on my iPad. I am rushing to get. It done, and I think I will win, but the grief that is overtaking me is, at times, overwhelming.
M ore and more, also, I am finding it difficult to post on my blog.
It feels a very lonely road, and I wish that things could be solved, but, no matter how hard we try, we just seem stuck with it.
My first priority though, is getting the book finished. I will feel that I have achieved something if I at least achieve that.
Such is life. We can never know quite what is going to happen to us in life, and maybe t is as w