If anyone else is finding Christmas Day hard, for ANY reason, please feel free to come to this thread. You can voice what you want /need to here.
I find Christmas Day very hard because, as many of you know,I had a highly abusive mother, and my memories of Christmas Day are terrible. The minute the lights in town start to go up I start to ffeel fear. Of course, that continues until Christmas Day itself. Then there are bereavements. My lovely grandmother.
So PLEASE feel free to come here if this is not a good day for you.