What has been the most difficult, hardest, or most painful decision you’ve ever had to make in your life?

In answering the above question, I know that I might be a bit controversial. However, the most difficult and painful decision I ever had to make was to go forwards with chemotherapy when I was diagnosed with very advanced cancer. It was a blood cancer that affects the immune system and all the lymph nodes. But it had produced huge tumours all over my body and in critical places too. I was literally at death’s door. Something inside me did not want to fight, but wanted to give in to the inevitable and get it over with quickly. It was as the Ward Sister said to me, a “leap of faith” anyway. Not bound to work for me. The thoughts of going through gruelling chemotgerapy did not appeal. No, I had a chance to be at rest now, after a very, very painful and difficult life. However, in the end I did decide to fight. I have no idea if I would have made the same decision had I known how I would end up – blind, unable to walk and in constant pain, with lung and heart problems. But I am still here, and I have written so much in these last years, and there is so much more that I want to write.

5 thoughts on “#FPQ

  1. I’m so sorry, Lorraine, that you have had to suffer so, but you are here and you are making yourself felt and loved by those of us in the WordPress community who read and appreciate your poetry and prose.

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  2. blindzanygirl

    Thankyou so much Fabdango and your words have made it all worthwhile. I am so sorry about your having to now make that painful decision for your cat. We have always had dogs and gone through that too.

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  3. I think that made a very brave decision. Very hard but you are still here and are connecting with so many people through your writing. I feel your pain and I hope that it gets better! Hugs. Thanks for sharing


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